Thursday, December 11, 2008
Still deciding what to get your loved ones for the holidays? Snuggle Bunny BABY!
I love these photos- Zach looks like one of the American Apparel models- kinda uninterested and possibly in his underwear lol!
The holiday on Etsy is being good to us- and in return I am trying to get orders out in a more timely manner! No sleep- till Christmas? Well actually tonight- Zach will be working from home tomorrow, so I should be able to get some shut eye.
Yesterday, I came to peace with something that has been haunting me since Hazel arrived. My personal journey with breastfeeding. Since I became pregnant- even before that actually- I wanted to be a breastfeeding mama. Just grab the kids and go and when they we're hungry- just feed wherever. Then my reality set in. Seeing all the nurses tell me something different while in the hospital, meeting with 4 different lactation specialists and trying to make sense of it all- has been emotionally draining. Worried about night feeds b/c I am alone and can't really get the right latch. Hazel sensing my lack of confidence and apprehension. Feeling like I am a terrible mother because I've been supplementing with formula. It all came to a head yesterday, while my mom spent the day with me. She was very supportive and made me realize that I am a good mother- regardless whether I breastfeed or not. It was an ideal I've had and thanks to my sister-in-law and a new friend in the Etsy world- I feel more confident about my decision. I am going to continue to try and achieve that "perfect latch" that we have not yet found- but I'm not going to sweat it. Using an alternative organic formula along with breast milk is what we're going to do. Right now Hazel has been able to go from breast-bottle in no time flat. I know the idea of breastfeeding is very sacred and nurturing- but so is having Zach able to feed H too. Him being a part of her nourishment is a beautiful thing. It also takes some of the pressure off of a new mom who isn't haven't an easy time. I feel that H knows when I'm relaxed and when I'm not. She reacts to it and such a small person shouldn't be feeling my anxiety. So- I just wanted to share what we've been going through- amongst the Christmas decorations- two bewildered kitties- loads of tiny socks and receiving blankets.
Happy Thursday xo